Nomad

As I continue to be in my contemplative state, I look around and wonder "where is it that I belong?" I think of the overly romantic couples of which I don't belong and how often you'll hear the significant other say "you belong with me." This happens in movies and real life, but hasn't happened to me.

I think about my place in this life. How life constantly changes but for me it has seemed to be the same. I long to travel, I long for change, besides some minor opportunities that I am in no way complaining about and am SO thankful for, I am getting none of what I desire.

I think of my fathers favorite song "Wandering Star" And I know I can relate. I want to wander, I want to travel.

I looked up the word nomad for this blog post:

1. A member of a group of people who have no fixed home and move according to the seasons from place to place in search of food, water, and grazing land.

2. A person with no fixed residence who roams about; a wanderer.

I'm not by literal definition a nomad. However I feel like a nomad in this life. no place that I belong I just roam about and wander. 

I do have a friend or two that I feel like I belong in this life with... 

My dad did a cover/mashup of the songs Wandering Star and Desperado and I'd say that accurately describes me right now. 

Thoughts

I've been in a very contemplative state of mind lately. Almost non stop.

I've been crafting, writing, cleaning, and working.
Yes, WORKING! I'm helping out at a local office and getting paid for the work I do! I'm so excited!

My crafts I'm almost getting into full swing. I am working on a tree skirt for my grandmothers Christmas tree, and my writing... I'm finally getting somewhere now that I've changed my direction.

Cleaning just calms me so thats why I've been doing it.

Anyway I've been thinking about friendships and how they fade, how people and lives change...

More than that I've been struggling with not fitting in. It's been a tough road but I'll get through it, I always do.

I'm not being too transparent because I don't want to share too many details about all thats going on. But I am changing and things in my life are changing! So here we go!!