Bible Study

So For the last few months I've been teaching an in home/online Bible Study. It's been going well. However for the last several weeks I've had to cancel. I figured this was as good a place as any to discuss this. About 2 and a half months ago I started having a horrible, unbearable, and constant pain in my side. After a little over a month of this and no improvement my mother and some close friends talked to me about needing to go to the doctor, two of them made me promise that I would. So I did, and they found that I had a small kidney stone. I began on the journey to get rid of it and still a month later I haven't passed it and the pain is getting worse as well as some other things that have been happening. So I've had to cancel. I hope to start back up next week or the week after. I miss the world of Esther, with some wonderful women. My life has been a little calmer without some of the extra pressure in my home so that's been fine but I haven't been able to take full advantage of this. Hopefully Soon!

I write again soon (I hope) hehe

Craftea

Well I have no idea what to do with this blog anymore but I know I'm missing my crafting days. I need to get out there and just start doing my thing again but life has gotten hard and taken a lot out of me. I'm gonna try though. My life is becoming more about tea, writing, and crafting again and I can openly share that part of myself online. :) So lets see how that goes, shall we?

Heavens to Betsy!

The title of this post says it all! It's April of 2014 and I haven't posted since December of 2013! I know not a lot of people read my blog so it doesn't REALLY matter but I was doing so well with posting last year! I'm so sorry I've slacked off! May I should have done a theme year again this year. haha!

Well from December to April not a lot has changed. I'm trying for a position in Childrens ministry, I am still selling jewelry and my life is still dull and meaningless. I have a few friends and I care for them deeply. That number has recently grown thanks to connections with people in my church family. Thats all thats going on really so this is a very short post. I need to find something specific to blog about don't I?

Birthdays, Christmas, and Church! Oh My!

Very recently I just celebrated my 28th birthday and started on my 28th year of life. This is a bitter sweet age for me. I'm happy to have another year of life but at the age of 28, when I was younger I always thought I'd be married with a family and a full time job, Not living with my mom struggling to find work, and confused about whether or not I have a prospect. I'm doing my very best to be happy in life where I am at. In a few weeks my life is about to change for the negative again, unless I can find another thing to do. So I'm working hard at that. Which is keeping me WAY too busy, but honestly I love it.

Ooh and Jane Austen's Birthday is coming on Dec 16th! Tea Party and Jane Austen marathon anyone? So excited!

Christmas is coming! I look forward to more things with my family both real family and church family. So far I've been to a Christmas Tea Party at a near by church, that was fun! Then I went to our Church Candlelight tour! I love spending time with all the people in my church and the other surrounding churches! Next is my own churches Candlelight service and possibly Caroling! I just love this season.

I'm really enjoying this Devotion December! It's been a blessing to write a devo and prayer every day and pray for all the requests that were sent to me!

A lot of people seem very sad that I'm not doing a theme year next year. These themes and posts take a LOT of time. 2013 was a busy and full year thanks to these themes but it's time for me to actually get out and live! I was able to do a lot with these themes and be there for a lot of people. I'm so thankful for that! I also lost a lot of friends through this theme year. Which is fine. They didn't want to hear it, they didn't have to. 2014 is going to my year though, I'm determined to finally get settled. Maybe finish my writing projects (all 5 or 6 of them lol) Find a full time job, find a significant other (lol) and actually spend my time with good friends that understand me and wont use me (I've got to find them first, that live close by) Perhaps I'll move! lol The possibilities are endless but I REALLY have to figure out my life.

Things to cover

Well, in the last month I did the "Thankful November" thing and I've  now started on "Devotion December" This is my month of prayer and I'm also writing devotions for each day of December. After this month I will have completed an entire year of theme months! How crazy is that?! A WHOLE YEAR! Technically I've already reached a year but I'm talking Calender year. I started these themes last November, but decided to do them the ENTIRE year of 2013 and what a great year for this it's been. I've learned a lot about me and also the people around me.

I have lost friendships this year and gained some as well. God is good and I'm constantly growing.

I have to be honest though, I am hoping very hard that 2014 is full of bigger changes for me. A full time job, a significant other, and moving out of my moms house are just the start of the things I want in 2014. I'm ready. Question is, is the world ready for me? I sure hope so!

I've been doing a part time job since October and start more part time work this month. I'm ready to get my jewelry making name out there.

Hopefully I'll be blogging more too. I'm trying to finish a story that I'm working on. Also trying to finish reading the now 11 books I have on my reading list by the end of the year. Not going to happen but hopefully I'll finish half of that! haha

I'm going to try and get back on my diet and exercise routine and finish decorating for Christmas. Life is just crazy. Happy Holidays though Folks. Sending love and prayers your way.

Nomad

As I continue to be in my contemplative state, I look around and wonder "where is it that I belong?" I think of the overly romantic couples of which I don't belong and how often you'll hear the significant other say "you belong with me." This happens in movies and real life, but hasn't happened to me.

I think about my place in this life. How life constantly changes but for me it has seemed to be the same. I long to travel, I long for change, besides some minor opportunities that I am in no way complaining about and am SO thankful for, I am getting none of what I desire.

I think of my fathers favorite song "Wandering Star" And I know I can relate. I want to wander, I want to travel.

I looked up the word nomad for this blog post:

1. A member of a group of people who have no fixed home and move according to the seasons from place to place in search of food, water, and grazing land.

2. A person with no fixed residence who roams about; a wanderer.

I'm not by literal definition a nomad. However I feel like a nomad in this life. no place that I belong I just roam about and wander. 

I do have a friend or two that I feel like I belong in this life with... 

My dad did a cover/mashup of the songs Wandering Star and Desperado and I'd say that accurately describes me right now. 

Thoughts

I've been in a very contemplative state of mind lately. Almost non stop.

I've been crafting, writing, cleaning, and working.
Yes, WORKING! I'm helping out at a local office and getting paid for the work I do! I'm so excited!

My crafts I'm almost getting into full swing. I am working on a tree skirt for my grandmothers Christmas tree, and my writing... I'm finally getting somewhere now that I've changed my direction.

Cleaning just calms me so thats why I've been doing it.

Anyway I've been thinking about friendships and how they fade, how people and lives change...

More than that I've been struggling with not fitting in. It's been a tough road but I'll get through it, I always do.

I'm not being too transparent because I don't want to share too many details about all thats going on. But I am changing and things in my life are changing! So here we go!!