These past few weeks have been some of the hardest weeks of my life but like always I've learned so much. My uncle got very bad off and died last monday after having multiple strokes. My family is very heartbroken after the loss but we've pulled together and God's strength is our way of getting through. My own personal time with this is just that...
I'm always so strong. I'm the one that people go to for their problems but I dont really have anyone to talk to about my own stuff. Which i guess thats understandable. I mean, I'm a youth minister...I'm gonna have youth coming to me all the time. And I love that job...it's my dream...but I need someone to talk to as well. And I've got Jesus. Jesus and I do well...but sometimes its just nice to have someone else listening to whats going on in my life. I know everything is gonna be okay though.
And I'm just so tired of being the back burner in all my friends lives. For once I'd like someone to see the tears on my face and let me talk about whats going on. I guess I'm a better actress than even I realized.
I dont want to be hurting, I want to continue to be strong but I'm getting burnt out.
I cant wait to graduate, then to experience life outside of college. To be able to have a real job, have a roommate, and be able to give all my attention to ACCAA.
Thats another thing, ACCAA. People keep trying to rush whats going on, they say they arent but so many are. things like success in ACCAA take time. I'm doing everything I can, and will not be taken away from it. I'm just having a rough time of it right now. But I know it'll get better.
God Bless and Good night
-Lynnea
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