Mirror May- Transparent

As I go through this Mirror May I am quickly realizing that to be truly honest, and get my point across, I HAVE to be transparent. I have to share the good, bad and the ugly.

Today's facebook post was probably the most transparent I've gotten this month.

I don't like talking about the judgments that many people have put on me. But it's part of my walk.

People who first meet me think that I've had it easy. Since I was a child I've had a smile on my face. I used to and still try to find the good in EVERYTHING. Whenever I talk about my situations in life I say "I've worn them well."

Even family has told me that dad dying wasn't a big deal because he died years ago. The thing is. I still grieve that loss deeply. My dad died when I was 15 years old, before most big moments in a girls life. He wasn't physically present at my sweet 16, my high school graduation, my college graduation, and if I get married one day... he wont be there. It HURTS. To know that my daddy wont be present during moments when a father should be there. I've learned to cope but I may never "get over it."

I've been called a drama queen because of my tender heart, been told that I second guess myself too much. and I'm constantly prejudged, just like we all are. I've learned to shrug these things off but they happen a lot.

But honestly please don't judge a persons life, saying they've had it easy when you DONT know. If you weren't there walking with them, or havent experienced their path in anyway... know that we ALL have hard times and they are different levels of hurt for EVERYONE because we ALL handle things differently.

My heart hurts for so many tonight as I think of the people that are prejudged...

And I think of Meg in Glass Girl (a great book I've read, from Playlist Fiction, check it out on Amazon for Kindle. It's by Laura Anderson Kurk) She went through a difficult time, but she spent time hiding the hurt, because that was best for her at the time... She went through her grief, and found her path...found friends, and stood up for the truths that she knew... As I read it, I felt like a glass girl too, I could totally relate to her and I still can. Theres a glass girl in all of the hurting, I think...


This is me being transparent and true, saying we all have moments of hurting, and we all handle them different. Don't harshly judge ANYONE because you never know what they are going through.