I Believe

I believe.

These are words that are relevant  at different times in our lives.

When we are children and we reach an age where we are told Santa and the Easter Bunny (or even the Tooth Fairy) aren't real.

We have a choice, Do we believe?

Yes. I believe.

I'm 31 years old and I believe in Santa, I believe in the Easter Bunny. I Believe in magic. Not in the same way as I did when I was a child. I believe in the magic, in the spirit, in the MEANING of these things. I believe for my children, I believe for myself. I believe.

More than that, I chose to believe in God long ago. I was 8 years old when I asked Christ into my heart when I got the question "Do you Believe?" and I said "YES!"

I was recently introduced to a movie called Do You Believe and it forced me to look at my life, to answer that question of belief.  I answered Yes. With all of my heart I believe. No matter what, I BELIEVE.

Through out my life there were smaller questions of belief.
 These are the questions I want to focus on today.

I believe everything will be okay. In this life... well... LIFE HAPPENS. Things go wrong, struggles appear, yet everything SOME HOW will be okay. Why do I believe this?

When my father died, I thought my world was ending. He was the parent I was closest to. We rarely clashed and I loved him very dearly. I entered a depression that I thought I'd never leave. I wanted to die. Then little things woke me up. Some more amusing than others.

I went to the hospital after Dad died, problems with my healthy, and my mother and I were awakened by something. The hospital had not just my father marked as dead but when he died they marked me as dead too! I was quite literally a "Dead girl walking" They fixed it quite easily but the point was that it woke me up and made me realize I didn't TRULY want to die. I still had someone to be there for, my mother. who would be crushed if I left her too. I laugh at it now, I laughed at it then, but it still woke me up!

In the midst of it all, I was being bullied at school, by students and teachers. I needed out. I had befriended a person that was homeschooled. I decided to be homeschooled for a while too. Being homeschooled for nearly a year and a half, getting a different experience, woke me up.

Years later I was diagnosed with a disorder I had since birth, all the while being told I would amount to nothing.

I've overcome many things my disorder could keep me from. I got a college education, I found true love, I have 3 wonderful step children. I amount to many things, I'm also an author. Everything has turned out just fine. AND My mother is now my best friend!

So yes, I believe. I believe strong.

I also believe in more than just doctors. My experience of doctors says that they don't care like they used to. They think more about being a liability and less about helping their patient. My Aunt Liz and I both say something "They treat the symptoms not the cause of the symptoms. Not the real problem." That is our experience and the experience of many others.

So myself and others take things into their own hands. Not badly, research is done. I started using Herbs a few years ago when I had horrible migraines and none of their prescription meds were helping. I took feverfew and it was the only thing that helped. So what do I believe in? Natural remedies.

I've recently discovered essential oils and we use them in our home, diffuse them, use them topically but it's helped with our sinuses, headaches, and insomnia. 

My husband who has tried many things for sleep has found that essential oils are the best thing for him.

I believe in the big things and the small things. I believe that essential oils are good for health and cleaning and a little bit of everything.

So I declare this about all that I believe.
"  Yes, I believe
I believe with all that is in me
Yes, I believe
Though the world rises up against me
I will be faithful
To the choice I have made
I am determined
I will not be ashamed
To live so the whole world can see
That yes, I believe" -Yes, I believe by Point of Grace.