My boyfriend and I often say a phrase to one another, "Because I'm me"
This can be in response to anything really.
"Why did you do that?" "Because I'm me"
"Why do I put up with you?" (always a joke question of course) "Because I'm me"
"Why say that?" "Because I'm me"
"Why do I like you?" (another joke question) "Because I'm me"
Silly questions, so they get a silly answer... but really... isn't that all of us, I'm me, you are you. We are who we are.
I'm opinionated and stubborn. I'm extremely nice to almost everyone. The only time I am not all that nice is if you mess with me or someone I love. I'm strict, straight forward, and to the point. I'm overly honest, and I tell everyone like it is even at the expense of feelings being hurt. I'm EXTREMELY outspoken, and I talk A LOT. I love to laugh, and I love to tell stories. I give advice sometimes even when it's not wanted. I'm am a firm believer that everyone should learn from another persons experiences. I hurt, I bleed, My experiences have shaped me but helped me be compassionate.
But I am me. I love, I live, I laugh, I smile, and I'm me.
There is a confidence in that. It keeps me from overwhelming depression when I think of the fact that at 29 years old I'm still not in the work force, that at 29 while I do have an amazing boyfriend who I care for a great deal, I've not been married, I haven't started a family. But ultimately that's been my choice I could have been with several guys by now, married a few of them but it wouldn't have worked and I knew that and I didn't try to force it to work. Why? Because I'm me and I saw no point in that. So why post about being me?
I think everyone needs to have a confidence in being who they are. It helps in life to remember who you are and to be proud that you are you. So think about that, don't focus on the crappy things in life just remember that you are you and celebrate that.
Saturday, May 23, 2015
Sunday, May 10, 2015
Mom
"Mom" Such a powerful and beautiful word.
In my life I've had my mom, who is so good to me. She's my best friend. The only person in my life that's been there for me through EVERYTHING. She's amazing, beautiful, wonderful, and such a good example to me. I love her so very much.
I've also been blessed to know other amazing Mom's the mothers of some of my dearest friends. Mother's who made me feel like I was another child to them.
Beyond that I have so many friends and family who have become new moms in the last several years. They are learning, stressed, overworked, but so good at what they do. They are NOT forgotten, and I know so many moms feel this way.
So what do I suggest on this mothers day, relax, take a load off, read a book about the hard work mom's do that sometimes gets overlooked, watch Mom's Night Out, and have a pamper night, if you have daughters involve them. Just have a you time. Remember you are loved and awesome.
Happy Mothers Day!
In my life I've had my mom, who is so good to me. She's my best friend. The only person in my life that's been there for me through EVERYTHING. She's amazing, beautiful, wonderful, and such a good example to me. I love her so very much.
I've also been blessed to know other amazing Mom's the mothers of some of my dearest friends. Mother's who made me feel like I was another child to them.
Beyond that I have so many friends and family who have become new moms in the last several years. They are learning, stressed, overworked, but so good at what they do. They are NOT forgotten, and I know so many moms feel this way.
So what do I suggest on this mothers day, relax, take a load off, read a book about the hard work mom's do that sometimes gets overlooked, watch Mom's Night Out, and have a pamper night, if you have daughters involve them. Just have a you time. Remember you are loved and awesome.
Happy Mothers Day!
Wednesday, May 06, 2015
More Of An Impact Than You Realize
So, I know it's been a while. Sorry about that, I just haven't had much inspiration in the blog writing lately.
I'm trying to get back into it blogging and today I had a great conversation with a friend from my middle school days. We've known each other for years and it's been a long time since we've talked, going our separate ways, we've found our way back to our friendship and today she REALLY just told me some things I needed to hear.
I'm a people helper, always have been and if I have my way I always will be. But the older I get the harder it's become to do a lot of the things I would like to do to help people. I wanted to be a youth minister, I love babysitting, and if I see a friend in need I do what I can to help.
Today though, as I was talking to my friend she made a major impact on my life, encouraging me to keep going and being who she has always known me to be. She reminded me that I have made an impact of my own on so many lives, and encouraged me to keep going.
Sometimes it might be something as small as sharing your heart on a blog you aren't sure anyone reads, to something as big as buying a friend some groceries.
Anyway you go about it I'm thankful for reconnecting with this friend and for the lessons she taught me today, and for the inspiration for todays post. You know who you are, and you are a blessing to me :)
I'm trying to get back into it blogging and today I had a great conversation with a friend from my middle school days. We've known each other for years and it's been a long time since we've talked, going our separate ways, we've found our way back to our friendship and today she REALLY just told me some things I needed to hear.
I'm a people helper, always have been and if I have my way I always will be. But the older I get the harder it's become to do a lot of the things I would like to do to help people. I wanted to be a youth minister, I love babysitting, and if I see a friend in need I do what I can to help.
Today though, as I was talking to my friend she made a major impact on my life, encouraging me to keep going and being who she has always known me to be. She reminded me that I have made an impact of my own on so many lives, and encouraged me to keep going.
Sometimes it might be something as small as sharing your heart on a blog you aren't sure anyone reads, to something as big as buying a friend some groceries.
Anyway you go about it I'm thankful for reconnecting with this friend and for the lessons she taught me today, and for the inspiration for todays post. You know who you are, and you are a blessing to me :)
Wednesday, April 15, 2015
Fear of Sewing Machines
So, you know how people tend to have irrational fears? I've had a few in my life.
A fear of sponge bob actually led me to fall down stairs in college because a friend of mine started singing the theme song as I was getting ready to leave where we were all hanging out. I have sense over come that fear thanks to some great teens that I met a few years ago.
So through out my life I learned to sew. But I HATED sewing machines, I can't explain why but I've always had a fear of them... using them, being near them made me completely nervous. So all of the sewing I've ever done is by hand.
I think it's important to overcome fears and step outside of comfort zones and that's how I try to live my life, so this week I got out my sewing machine and finally decided to sit down and make a dress. I'm still nervous around sewing machines but I overcame my fear and in just a few hours time I finished making my first dress ever!
This is a big thing for me and I'm actually pretty proud, also I now own a BEAUTIFUL dress! :)
I recommend to live your life overcoming fears. It might be scary but good things happen when you overcome fears! Blessings!
A fear of sponge bob actually led me to fall down stairs in college because a friend of mine started singing the theme song as I was getting ready to leave where we were all hanging out. I have sense over come that fear thanks to some great teens that I met a few years ago.
So through out my life I learned to sew. But I HATED sewing machines, I can't explain why but I've always had a fear of them... using them, being near them made me completely nervous. So all of the sewing I've ever done is by hand.
I think it's important to overcome fears and step outside of comfort zones and that's how I try to live my life, so this week I got out my sewing machine and finally decided to sit down and make a dress. I'm still nervous around sewing machines but I overcame my fear and in just a few hours time I finished making my first dress ever!
This is a big thing for me and I'm actually pretty proud, also I now own a BEAUTIFUL dress! :)
I recommend to live your life overcoming fears. It might be scary but good things happen when you overcome fears! Blessings!
Wednesday, April 08, 2015
Sayings from the Mind of Lynnea
Over the past 5 years being out of college, looking for jobs unsuccessfully but having lots of time to think... I've come up with different little sayings, stuff to live by, or even sayings that I've seen somewhere else that have really helped me.
For the sayings that I've seen somewhere else that have meant something, one comes to mind the most:
I'm not saying it's going to be easy but I am saying it's going to be worth it.
A story goes a long with that one, maybe one day I'll blog it, until then it's between me, God and those I'm close to that I've shared it with.
But the little things I've come up with through the last 5 years that have stuck with me:
"It's not a good thing, it's not a bad thing. It's a God thing and we'll see where it goes from here."
-This one was me trying to be be an honest encouragement to a friend of mine.
"If you can't find something to do, then you should take it upon yourself to learn to do something new."
-This one came about because in the last few years being jobless I've learned to cook, sew, make my own shampoo, lotion, body scrub, body wash, tooth past and deodorant. I also make my own jewelry and have taken up a few more crafts to fill the time up with something.
"I'm good with God, how are you?" -My little zinger of a reply when people condescendingly ask how I'm doing when they know I'm going through a rough patch
I'm sure there are more but these are the ones that immediately came to mind and I wanted to share because some of them amuse while others inspire. So have a good night you beauties!
Tuesday, April 07, 2015
Religion or Something Else
When I was at college there was this huge debate about "religion or relationship." Is it more about one or the other? Our university Chaplin even had a sermon on it saying something I in large part agree with, you can't have one without the other. It's religion AND relationship.
As time has gone on, and my faith in God has grown I've learned even more. I seek a divine RELATIONSHIP with God.
Going further, a religion tends to have the view of being tied down by beliefs. It's the thought of rules and regulations. The very definition is: relating to or believing in a religion, a person bound by monastic vows.
I've said about myself that while I go to a church that is of a denomination my heart is non denominational. You see, a denomination is a further breaking down of the religion of Christianity.
Looking in my library you'll see the same is true on a larger spectrum. I have The Book of Mormon, books on Catholicism and even a few rosaries or chaplets that I use in my prayer life. I have a Jewish Prayer shawl as well. So in my personal walk with God I've taken things from different denominations, or even other religions. No one religion or denomination is correct. We've all got different points and it's important to realize that. So am I saying that practicing religion is wrong? NO!
We just need to be able to have our eyes open instead of closed and often times that's what we let the focus on religion do to us, close our eyes.
It has annoyed me greatly recently that people put so much of a focus on religion to the point that when I say I'm a Christ follower or a lover of Christ I'm suddenly religious, and they turn their nose up at me "Oh, she's one of those!" No, I'm one of Christ's! I have a relationship with my Lord and savior not in one specific way but in many different ways!
It's like being in a relationship with anyone else, My interest in these other things, incorporating my knowledge of Catholicism, Jewish, Mormon and whatever else into my daily walk with God, praying about it and making it personal for my relationship with Him is what keeps our love alive and thriving and not boring and full of rules. I recognize that the Bible says there is only ONE GOD. And that is the ONE GOD I focus on. Just some thoughts I had today.
As time has gone on, and my faith in God has grown I've learned even more. I seek a divine RELATIONSHIP with God.
Going further, a religion tends to have the view of being tied down by beliefs. It's the thought of rules and regulations. The very definition is: relating to or believing in a religion, a person bound by monastic vows.
I've said about myself that while I go to a church that is of a denomination my heart is non denominational. You see, a denomination is a further breaking down of the religion of Christianity.
Looking in my library you'll see the same is true on a larger spectrum. I have The Book of Mormon, books on Catholicism and even a few rosaries or chaplets that I use in my prayer life. I have a Jewish Prayer shawl as well. So in my personal walk with God I've taken things from different denominations, or even other religions. No one religion or denomination is correct. We've all got different points and it's important to realize that. So am I saying that practicing religion is wrong? NO!
We just need to be able to have our eyes open instead of closed and often times that's what we let the focus on religion do to us, close our eyes.
It has annoyed me greatly recently that people put so much of a focus on religion to the point that when I say I'm a Christ follower or a lover of Christ I'm suddenly religious, and they turn their nose up at me "Oh, she's one of those!" No, I'm one of Christ's! I have a relationship with my Lord and savior not in one specific way but in many different ways!
It's like being in a relationship with anyone else, My interest in these other things, incorporating my knowledge of Catholicism, Jewish, Mormon and whatever else into my daily walk with God, praying about it and making it personal for my relationship with Him is what keeps our love alive and thriving and not boring and full of rules. I recognize that the Bible says there is only ONE GOD. And that is the ONE GOD I focus on. Just some thoughts I had today.
Sunday, April 05, 2015
Resurrection Day and Ramblings
First, I would like to say Happy Easter, Passover, Resurrection day to each and every single one of you.
Sitting at home after service today I did some reading. I'd just come inside from being out and working on cutting some limbs down on some trees.
I was reading Crazy Love by Francis Chan and I have to say it convicted me of something bad. Let me explain.
My entire childhood I was the girl that smiled no matter what she faced... Even when I was utterly depressed over the death of my Dad I found reasons to smile, I was the girl that found joy in the darkness... I loved being like this. But then people started condemning me for it, others would tell me (whether they knew my past or not) that I have always had it easy because I never struggled.
The truth was I struggled in silence, only those closest to me knew, and sometimes even they didn't know until later sometimes. My best friend all through high school had no idea that I was bullied all through our years in HS together, for example. She only found out about 4 years ago when I finally confessed it to her.
I've had aunts, cousins, grandparents and other family members and friends tell me that they've had it more difficult than me because they've had to go through other struggles on top of things that happened in their lives. All the while not realizing that I have gone through a lot, had struggles I just did it all silently keeping a smile on my face and my head just above water.
After hearing that for so long I began to be utterly honest about what I'm going through, when I'm going through it, how I'm going through it, and sometimes even why. Now people say I'm complaining when it's just honesty... but I would love to get back to the happy go lucky girl I one was. Perhaps I will...
Sitting at home after service today I did some reading. I'd just come inside from being out and working on cutting some limbs down on some trees.
I was reading Crazy Love by Francis Chan and I have to say it convicted me of something bad. Let me explain.
My entire childhood I was the girl that smiled no matter what she faced... Even when I was utterly depressed over the death of my Dad I found reasons to smile, I was the girl that found joy in the darkness... I loved being like this. But then people started condemning me for it, others would tell me (whether they knew my past or not) that I have always had it easy because I never struggled.
The truth was I struggled in silence, only those closest to me knew, and sometimes even they didn't know until later sometimes. My best friend all through high school had no idea that I was bullied all through our years in HS together, for example. She only found out about 4 years ago when I finally confessed it to her.
I've had aunts, cousins, grandparents and other family members and friends tell me that they've had it more difficult than me because they've had to go through other struggles on top of things that happened in their lives. All the while not realizing that I have gone through a lot, had struggles I just did it all silently keeping a smile on my face and my head just above water.
After hearing that for so long I began to be utterly honest about what I'm going through, when I'm going through it, how I'm going through it, and sometimes even why. Now people say I'm complaining when it's just honesty... but I would love to get back to the happy go lucky girl I one was. Perhaps I will...
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