Think Before You Speak

I have spent my whole life judged, misjudged, over judged... you name it, it's annoyed me.

No matter what I do people have a problem with who I am as a person. Do I care? No, not really but it is annoying. Not for me but because I know that if they are doing it to me they are doing it to others as well, and the others they are doing it to may not be able to stand up for themselves like I can.

I'm overly honest about my brain disorder, thyroid disease and other struggles in life. I also know in the long run that everything is going to be okay. I do not talk about it because I want to but because I believe God has called me to a purpose of honesty. My life, as with anyone else is an example and who am I to, stop God from using the story He has given me?

I had a recent conversation with a friend that  I cannot get off of my mind. It honestly broke my heart, mainly because I know many people feel this way about me. That I'm overreacting about my brain disorder. So I figured this was as good a place as any to explain things.

Have you ever had an issue that you had to live with every single day? One, in which, on the outside you looked normal but on the inside everything was a struggle, you don't know how to ride a bike, tie your shoes properly, and you trip over AIR? It effected your thought process, your spelling, how you do math, and some days are fine while other days just SUCK, your anxiety causes such issues that it's hard for you to work a job in retail or food industry. You know people that have offered others jobs but they wont offer you one because they think you are being dramatic when all you are doing is trying to find your level of living as normal as possible.

I'm not going to lie, I can take care of myself, I can cook food, I can work jobs I've had years of training in or things that just come natural. I'm HIGH FUNCTIONING for a reason. But I still have issues. Just like everyone else. And also just like anyone in my position it gets really tiring to hear people get annoyed or see people roll their eyes at me because they think I'm making stuff up or being over dramatic. You DONT live with me, you ARENT me, Don't JUDGE me and you need to CHECK YOURSELF before you call yourself a CHRISTIAN if you are going to judge me. That goes for ANYONE in a position like mine...

I hear people say "Love God. Love People" Here is the thing about that, we're called to love people the way God love's us. God doesn't pick and choose who He loves. He loves us ALL. And He would NEVER roll his eyes at someone who is sharing their story when they repeat stuff.

Also, there is a boy in my class who repeats things all the time about his struggles and his aspirations, no one complains about him, they smile and are so proud of him. Why not be like that with everyone else?

If you don't think before you speak you alienate people and then you have good people ready to walk away from things they shouldn't be walking away from.

Love don't judge
Listen don't speak
Hug don't hurt
and remember that when you do say something choose your words wisely because other wise you'll be the reason someone gives up on God and I don't think ANYONE wants that on their track record.